Hi everyone.
This Holiday week is great and sad the same time. Before when preparing for Passover kids always made special trip to do Passover shopping. This year ,it was not the same.Last year ,I cant remember much of Passover,we where still in the hospital with Sammy.This year during Passover shopping we came across special items that Sammy use to love and waited whole year for . It makes Holiday full of memories back when Sammy use to run all over the store looking for chocolate covered Matzot packages.....
Something else surfaced in my mind ,this time last year ,I read an interesting book that I keep coming back to.
It comes to my mind one fragment of the book . There was a paragraph dedicated to stages of grief. In my mind ,I had check marked stage by stage that was described.
Anger-did that.Bargaining-possibly,Acceptance-that is the stage we have been stuck with for the past several month. It is against our nature to accept Sammy's decline without continues fighting,believe. It seems that after all this rules does not necessarily apply to every one at every time. So where are we in this stages? Its seems that we go back and forth up and down the stairs. Do we all made of the same material?How much fuel do we still have?
Stubborn believe in the bright future ,no matter what today bring us -is what we know best. There is always a sunny day after rain,there is always warm weather after cold winter.
Sammy on the other hand surrounded him self with many girls.He enjoys attention from every visitor . From reading , music therapy to regular nurse visits ,soon massage therapy and walks outside. As long as he is involve in activity and does anything but just laying in bed-Sammy is happy. That is our goal ,to keep Sammy's days happy. Give him as much attention ,love support we possibly can.
Do you know where you are in your life? Is there anything you wanted or regret not achieving?
Sincerely, Sammy and mom.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Where are we?!....
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may hashem give chaim shmuel ben chana a complete and speedy recovery!
You are a beautiful mom, who inspires me. I look forward to reading your blog. I pray for you, Sammy and your family. Thank you for sharing these days.
We are at similar stages as you are and also very stubborn.
Sun does come out after the rain.
With love to Sammy and Zeltser Papa and Mama.
My experience is that we go back and forth through the stages of dealing with saddness/illness/change in our lives. Sometimes it occurs day to day and sometimes it is a long process. I have learned that it is never easy, and I think of all of you daily.
wishing you only the health,weath and hapiness!
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