Flash back

Hi All.
Its 2:31 am.Why cant I sleep?
Few days ago we had a visitor.Some one who new Sammy for those 2 short years in kindergarten and 1st grade ,who saw us struggle trying to find answer to what is happening .It was a flash back and reminder that Sammy was walking and talking once before.She was puzzled about Sammy's condition too,trying to help alone with concern school staff.She brought a video,10 minute flash back from the past showing Sammy in the 1st grade interacting with school mates and his aid Laura. Watching this video for the first time left me and Alex devastated and ,so very sad.After I thought about it ,I realized how important it is to have this memory -this only video of our son.
Since than we keep watching it ,all of us .Sammy's nurse have been with us for 2years now . Knowing Sammy only ,so very sick all this time -she was ,so upset after viewing this tape it give her completely different angle of our life's than and now-She said she wished she didn't see it.
Who would of known that simple 10 minute clip can bring ,so many emotions?!
Yet ,this was another test and my conclusion is that we are so very Thankful for the opportunity to own this treasure .Thank you
Sammy and Mom