Grey world...

Hi Friends,

We just came back from NY.Praying makes sense.
Shortly after we came back Grandpa turned 75! We had Family over,but after they left .........
Lets just say we got another case of staph infection this time my husband Alex.Its not clear weather he got it from 3 weeks ago during Sammy's hospitalization or .....It does not matter now. Alex is in isolation in the hospital on I.V.s .
It feels like we have been seating on the box of explosives and never know when it will go off.
There is many mysteries to why all of this challenges came to our plate same time.like Eva said,
Mom we only get stronger , I remember at her age 13,everything was black and white for me too, later in life you realize that we leave in a grey world .
Ones again , I just feel numb .There is very little that surprises me this days .
Tomorrow Eva is leaving on her spring break she is leaving with her grandparents,Marina is back at collage ,Misha went back to NY today ,Alex is in he hospital. Its supper quite in the house ,I kind of enjoy being with Sammy alone ,he understands me and we are celebrating upcoming Passover alone.
There is many challenging days ahead I just ask Almighty to give us strength to overcome this time in our life's ,just like Passover story-difficult ,but is possible to survive.......



XOXO Sammy and Mom

250

Hi Friends,
This is our 250Th post. Wow
Just an update on Sammy's condition. It has been 3 weeks since hospital.Most of us got rid of the caught with in 2 weeks ,not Sammy. He is straggling to clear his lungs every day.
We do massages and move him from side to side,in the evening he gets on his wheelchair and stays in the Family room being part of the evening with us. This up right position helps him
to caught too ,even know its sun out we are not permitted to take him outside yet.
I started to feel claustrophobic .Its like a circle around me is getting tighter ,if feels creepy and uncomfortable . I try to snap out of it ,but its to real . Even Alex has been very quit ,imagine that! My loud husband !? There is silent conversation between us, no one says anything ,but every one knows what its about.Its interesting how different we are almost complete apposite of each other and how with time we think alike?!
Lets keep positive after all -that's what kept us a float so, far....

Sincerely ,Sammy and Mom

sences

Hi Friends.
Sammy is good ,no changes since yesterday.

This is rather a personal experience that I debated to share with you all since last week.
Every ones in a while every one has to deal with home predators .This is our story.
Last week sitting on my computer after hours I saw shadow and realized that something was moving quickly . After few hours we knew it was a field mice that got in to the house from garage ? The chaise was on! We had to wait quietly 'sitting like a mouse' .Running from us to master bedroom into other rooms until Sammy's bedroom-that is when I said that is it!
I took out a cheese stick /just like the one we get for kids school lunches/ and put it on the floor between the bedrooms. What do you think happened next? Well this smart animal jumped over a cheese stick and went in to the next room! I said -Oh my , even mouse does not like this cheese -than what are we eating?
After we finally caught it and unharmed let it outside back to its home, I thought about how smallest animals relay on their senses and we failed over and over to trust ours .
Is in this ironic ? Have you ever thought about how much unused potential we hold with in our self's ? Have you ever try to listen to your inside world before? Not because others do it or its required by some one else ? You will be surprised .....
Trust your instincts .
Sincerely Sammy and Mom

Untill next morning.....

Hi All,
I know I have not updated my blog in the while.
There is not much happening.
Sammy has been trying very hard to overcome pneumonia , still. He got weaker just like all of us after illness ,but for him its much harder to recover at least back to his' base line'.
We take turns giving him massages -he loves it, its not easy to stay in bed and not able to move.
Just recently,I came across of a saying -'Success -is believing when others give up.....'
I thought about this saying for a while and I would re-do it to- Faith -is believing in a miracle when others give up........'-this is more like us.
I have been trying to compare other peoples life and situations to ours life now-with Sammy terminally ill -I realize that we are lucky that we got to this moment ALL together without losses. Its not easy to keep marriage together and your Family happy any way ,but under this kind of pressure its even harder.All of us have good days and great days . Understanding one another is my focus now , I like to always keep in mind one thing-'what ever happens -don't judge another person or situation until next morning..'
Have you try that before? You will see that next day sun is shining brighter and sky are more blue than the day before.
XOXO Sammy and Mom